I felt God call us to Krakow, Poland in June 2016. Then Josiah told me he thought it would be another 2-2.5 years before we could move. To be honest, I was quite angry and I did not agree as I just wanted to move within the next year. I knew Josiah had commitments with his job and we had my loans to pay off, but I was just ready to dive in to what God was doing in Eastern Europe. After a few months from returning from Poland and wise words from my best friend, my prayers changed from begging God for us to move now to asking Him to prepare my heart for when we go according to His timing.
Prepare my heart…I didn’t quite know what I was praying when I said that, but through the following months and years, God began to bring things out of my heart and mind that needed to be changed. And this stunk! But as I write this and reflect over the last 2 years, I am so thankful for what God has done inside of me and even Zibi (KDM pastor) said to us this past summer that he could see a change in us and that we wouldn’t have been ready or been the same if we would have come earlier. Andy Stanley states in Visioneering, “waiting time is not wasted time for anyone in whose heart God has placed a vision…His desire is to work through your circumstances to maneuver you into proper position. This is easy to see when we are looking back. It is something we have to take by faith when looking ahead.” It is still not easy…my motivation for work, my attention to the now and desire to build relationships is up and down, but even now I know God is still using me here and preparing me for what’s to come. “Here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Don’t give up; don’t be impatient; be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope. Yes, keep on waiting – for he will never disappoint you!” Psalm 27:14 (The Passion Translation)